Amazing Grace in the Goddess Pose
So this long weekend I did as I said I would and followed my yoga teacher, Jessie Neave, where ever she goes (while she’s teaching of course. Not just when she’s at the shops or in the shower, although…). Anyway, lucky for me Jessie wasn’t going far and so me and two of my besties headed off early on Saturday morning to the Hummingbird Eco Retreat for 2 and 1/2 days of Jessie’s Women’s Retreat.
The timing, as always was divinely guided. The girl stuff has been getting me down lately, in both body and soul. My PCOS, endometriosis and PMS symptoms have been feeling way out of my control; and my soul has been calling for me to enter into the soft strength of my Divine Feminine aspect rather than operating from the angry toughness of my masculine energy. I’ve been calling back to my soul, “HOW?!’
How do I achieve this balance at an experiential and sustainable level?
If you’ve read this blog before you’ll know that my time on a mat in front of Jessie always yields breakthroughs for me. And this retreat was no different. Jessie’s skill as a retreat facilitator was so apparent in this much shorter retreat format. How do you powerfully combine the energies of 15 women in the time that it usually takes to just get people warmed up? How do you accelerate the process of trust building and openness required to bring everyone into the optimal space to receive the benefits of the retreat? Quite simply, you don’t. You simply, as Jessie does so powerfully, hold the space and allow. Allow all the beautiful women to take their own unique and magnificent journey.
In the space Jessie created, and through a combination of yoga sessions (both active and for deep healing) and sessions rich in knowledge about the female body, I began to experience the opening required to be gentle and soft.
What I began to experience, and continue to experience, is a state of grace. I don’t know how else to describe it. I can feel inside of me, supported no doubt by the energy of all the women around me, what self-nurture actually means. I can feel what it means to be gentle with myself when the time calls for it. I can feel what it means to be strong from a place of stillness. I know what it feels like for anger to melt like butter in the sun simply by moving into my heart.
All this knowing culminated for me on the final morning. After just 2 and 1/2 days Jessie had allowed the space for my revelation and release. Going into the retreat the mantra, ‘do without doing and everything gets done’ has been running through my head. I didn’t know how such a thing could work. Jessie of course didn’t do nothing. She worked tirelessly. But the energy she gifted each one of us with was the sense of the effortlessness of her offering, her openness, her love, her sovereignty. Her Goddessness. And from that offering I began and continue to find all those aspects within myself.
Joyfully, Jessie will be co-facilitating the Mastery Retreat this November 12-15 in Northern NSW.