Who am I supposed to trust?
I am a soul seeker, that is for sure. I want to know more and more about my interior life, my invisible being, my oneness, my spirit, my divinity…I want to understand it all. And to be honest I want the most expedient path to that knowing. I want the accelerated journey. I feel like I have already wasted so much time.
That has lead me to falling down lots of rabbit holes…in other words, I tended to leap into every new suggestion, new book, new philosophy (or ancient for that matter) and try to make myself fit it. I embraced ideas and gurus and ‘thought-leaders’ without necessarily knowing what I was in for and if indeed it was right for me.
Eventually I did learn to come back to the the one true source (aka God aka Oneness aka I AM that I AM) and discovered that sitting in meditation was the best possible way to know a) what path to follow and b) when to just follow myself.
As I dive into a whole new world of ‘spiritual entrepreneurship’, however, I find myself once again desperate for information from authoritative sources (ie not me) and hungry for new knowledge to supplement my own deficit in this area. I am crazy for it. And I am crazy overwhelmed. I am not sure who to listen to, and there are many, many wonderful people out there with lots of amazing ideas. But there are only so many free webinars I can listen to in a day and only so many online courses I can do. Instead of feeling better I am losing my confidence and losing my way. I am just another source of noise in an already very loud world?
I don’t want to be the noise. Lightworker Institute doesn’t want to be noise. We want, if absolutely nothing else to be and bring and do and offer peace. Peace is most often found in the silence. Right now, that’s where I need to be, even though I am terrified I’ll miss some great insight from someone that will make all the difference. I need to go inward to be guided toward the right teacher or person for me right now. And I recommend you do the same. If the world is overwhelming you, even with all the good stuff, go into silence and allow the answers to come to you. Chances are you already know what or who you need, or if you remain still for a time, it will become super clear what the next step is for you.
Go where the water goes. With the flow.